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Snow in my coffee.

 

I’m a coffee addict but I don’t know the lingo
and this is the first time I’ve entered
this intimate closet
 café.
I walked by without noticing
until the snow came.
I ask for one shot
of espresso in my cup and he tells me
that is “red eye”
or “a shot in the dark,”
and both of those terms make sense to me.
It’s my day off, midweek,
I explain when he asks about my
pajamas tucked into boots that aren’t really fit
for snowstorms.
His eyes are light blue, and I don’t mind that I am
eyeliner-smeared and disheveled.
I tell him it feels like the snow will never end
and sometimes I think I am part of the blanket,
falling
endlessly
to concrete.
I don’t mention I’m always shooting
in the dark, casting dreams like kites in an electrical storm
 across city-sized snowglobes
lit by streetlamps
or that maybe “pretentious”
just means having pretense for some towering thing
 you can’t yet see
 through the snow.

 
 It’s so dreary out.
There’s no other word for it.
Or other words don’t fit
this lack
of momentum
in streets that are white and wet
and stuck there
against their will, and how
does everyone do it
every
goddamn
day?
Strip off blankets
and face windows,
wash away sleep with water and trudge
 through traffic like ants with newspapers
agendas
hearts beating in prisons
emails in palms that say “cancer” and “Friday night” and “bank statement” in the same font
and expectations
so momentarily catastrophic;
the order
for that coffee you were waiting in line for,
stuck in the desert of your mouth like sandpaper.